no napkins, no patronage

I learned a lot today.
Things I feared would come to pass,
Things I longed for, things I had.
The feeling of security,
Suddenly slipped away from me.

You are surely a treasure,
One that should be kept for eternity.
And to know that I met you seems so surreal,
A blinding dream of fantasy.

The Love I seemed to never have,
Struck me once, then fell deeply.
I'll be the person you want me to be,
A friend indeed, for sympathy.

I care deeply,
More than words can say.
Yet I respect your personhood,
Your destiny.

Keep these words I say close to your heart,
So that in a lifetime we can look back at this moment.
A time for saddness, yet no regret.
A time for happiness, which i'll accept.

A Guardian Angel is watching over me,
The kind who lifts me up to show me more than I can be.
An inspiration for those who have lost hope,
A comfort for the broken hearted........

Everything will be ok

So I talked to one of my best friends back in my home country today, and she seemed a bit down, which automatically affected me. She's dealing with a lot of situations back home; a lot of people are getting involved in her private affairs, and judging her based on it. It hurts me to hear her hurt, because she is such a wonderful person. I always wondered why people are put through such hurt. In a sense I believe that God puts us through these trials so that we can get closer to him. There must be a reason for everything right? But all I know, is that i will pray for her, and I know she will get through it, because she is strong, if she went through bad stuff in the past she can go through this now and will be rewarded for her pain.
I do believe there is a purpose for us living here temporarily here on earth, but sometimes i wonder why is it so hard to deal with people or situations. I mean everyone is entitled to their own views and opinions, but some push it to the limit you know. So why can't everyone see the good in each other. I think they put a mental block to things because they see the world through a stereotypical point of view. This is clearly revealed with what's going on in my friend's life at present, and I wish I as an individual can do something to change the minds of all those who persecute her. But I know there will be a time for everything, and they may be happy and joyful in laughing at her pain, but sooner or later they will not be so happy anymore. Seasons come and Seasons go right?

como estas, mi amiga pasada? or not?

So I saw her today, she and I could not avoid this confrontation. Our eyes were forced to see one another. I pretended to be alright, faking a smile to not show how hurt I was. Afterall I had not seen her in so long, and with all my trials of contacting her, they were in vain because she never responded. What happened to us, my so called "best friend"? I tried contacting you so many times, I tried calling you for your birthday but you never called back. I tried messaging you online, but you set your status to "away." Does this situation still haunt you? It hurt me for that point in time, but why did we let one person come between us? I never thought it would reach this stage. I still miss you my spanish "best friend". We had so much in common; could relate to situations; we are both only children. I miss hanging out with you. If only you know how much you mean to me. But now you tell me that you've got new friends, a new boyfriend, and a new car, and suddenly I begin to feel as though I am "una amiga pasada." You say that you want me to see your new car, and we should go hang out sometime, but the words in your eyes appear differently. I know I am only consolation to you. Now I still accept your "friendly" invitations, but when? When will it be? I would have gladly gone to lunch with you today, but you had other agendas. One day both of us will heal, and we will be closer than ever, I feel it, I know it......

A Tiring Day, once again...

Sometimes I wonder if my mind can ever be at rest. It seems as though it never stops working, especially pertaining to my studies. Where are the days where I didn't have to worry about the uncertainties of tomorrow, the stresses of today, or the hauntings of the past? Those days seemed to be short lived. Sometimes I wish i could go back to that point in time when i was a kid, where i didn't have to depend on myself, but rather i knew that my elders would have taken care of me. It's only now i realise what my mother always used to say to me when i was a bit younger; she would always say that i shouldn't rush to grow up because life is tougher being an adult than a kid. So I work myself so hard at school, go to classes everyday, do homework every night, hardly have a social life, but yet, seem to not get the grades i had wished for. It's not that i'm complaining, i just feel that life is so short, that sometimes it seems to appear useless. I don't want to be recognised, I don't want to be the richest person in the world, all i want is to be able to have a comfortable life, slightly better than the one I had as a child growing up; I want to help my mom, because I know how she struggled to make the best life for me, and I think i owe her the best repayments. But you know i do believe there is a reward in the midst of all this. I know that one day i'll be the happiest, relaxed, accomplished princess there is, and it is this thought which keeps me going...........

yippie, I created my own blog :-)

It's neat to have a place where i can express myself. I owe it all to my friend indeed, Judge Dredd :-) Ever since he came into my life, i've been inspired to do great things. He's just a positive driving force, anyone would be happy to be in his company. Thanks Dredd :-)

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